After nearly ten years of failed fertility trials, Rebecca and Sallyann's life irrevocably changes in just ten days, and not the way they expected. Focused for so long on bringing a baby into the world together, this lesbian couple was finally able to hold the newborn they were to adopt in their arms-but it doesn't last. They take the baby home from the hospital and welcome him into their family, when outside forces intervene and the birth mother reclaims the baby, sending the couple into a tailspin. The loss of a baby is quite possibly the worst scenario imaginable. Rebecca and Sallyann want the reader to know, you can survive it and, as a couple, grow stronger together. From their distinct voices, this dual memoir explores how feelings of self-doubt, longing, and heartache sneak into the layers of life, informing the decisions you make and the place where you belong.