DNF. Too many recent novels about Black abuse and heartache.

I read two-thirds of this book and will not suffer through any more of it. There are many sad, tragic, horrible events, and it is interesting to read how they are dealt with. however, I do not receive any enlightenment by constantly re-reading the same information. ( )

Perish: A Novel, LaToya Watkins, author; Jeremy Michael Durm, Keyonni James, Chante McCormick, Lisa Renee Pitts, Kacie Rogers, narrator
This is a novel about several generations of the Turner family, a family in turmoil as it travels on its chaotic journey to a final moment of discovery and an attempt to resolve its history of shame, guilt and failures. It starts with Helen Jean, in 1955, in Jerusalem, Texas. Her mother, Dimple Mae, is a rather benign, mentally disturbed figure; her father, Albert Pines, is a violent and cruel man. The story continues as it follows generations of this family, and Helen Jean’s siblings, into the early part of the following century, until it concludes in 2012, with the death of the matriarch and the revelation of many of the secrets she kept for decades, secrets she shielded not only from the children, but also hidden from herself, so she would not have to face them.
As Ernestine, Helen Jean’s cousin, keeps questioning her about whether or not her homebred recipe for an abortion is working, Sixteen-year-old Helen Jean grows more and more aware that it is not. She is just a young teenager who has been impregnated by her father. It was not the first time that she had been raped by him, but it is the first time that the abortion has failed. So begins a family not born of love, but instead of Helen Jean’s determination to save herself by marrying a man she does not love, but a man who wants to marry her and take care of her. So, she marries Jessie B., a man almost twice her age, and for awhile, he does take care of her. Although she could not bring herself to love this child, borne from her father’s seed, she vowed she would care for it when it was born, and she does only that.
From her children, and from her troubled soul, and other partners, there came other children. They also begat progeny. Each came with their own set of issues. Each was touched by the “sins of the father”, in some way, a father whose sins echoed and carried from generation to generation. There simply seemed to be no escape from this pattern of pain.
This was the saddest and most hopeless story, until the very end, when some semblance of an awakening or closure reaches some of the siblings, some in a positive way and some in a drastic and negative way. As many secrets are revealed, some family members are able to free themselves and move forward to a better world for themselves, to try to improve their lot in life, or perhaps to end its pattern of destruction. Still, they were unable to alter the damage caused by the original sins, the damage already done.
It was hard to keep track of the abundance of family members, as it told the story of each, going back and forth in time, and before long I was not sure who was anyone’s father or sibling. However, the story is knitted together in the end without any loose threads. The print book would be better than an audio book since it is easier to refer back to a character that way and to hold onto the storyline. Still, Helen Jean’s world is not a world that I am familiar with, and I found it somewhat hard to follow, both in language, the temperament of the characters, and their lifestyle. I found it very sad and wished that the conclusion really did present some hopefulness for the future of those who find themselves in such dire circumstances.
As the words “bear it or perish” are repeated in the narrative, it indicates how difficult it truly is to move on with your life if you try to fight the obstacles you can’t change. It reminds the reader that we all need the courage to change the things we can and accept the things we cannot, as a certain kind of black culture, racism, incest, police brutality, crime, drugs, and physical and sexual abuse are among the many subjects exposed and illuminated. ( )