Morphy Marches through 2015 - Part 4
Únase a LibraryThing para publicar.
Este tema está marcado actualmente como "inactivo"—el último mensaje es de hace más de 90 días. Puedes reactivarlo escribiendo una respuesta.
Benny has a new home, and I'll transfer him this weekend. I'm so relieved I found a nice family for him to join. He will be getting more attention, and play, I think. Yay!
May your mobility increase and your pain lessen and your questions be answered.
I think of you everyday and hope that there is improvement each day.
The pain is being managed very well but once I am home for a few days I want to talk to the doc about reducing them. I'm on Norco, Naproxen, and something called Lyrica that I still don't understand after reading the Wiki. I don't like being on this many pain meds.
The food is one step above bearable. The staff, for the most part, has been wonderful, if understaffed. They love me here. I feed them chocolate and cookies. Three of my aides got extra treats (box of chocolates or cookies) for being fabulous and going beyond the call of duty.
Kelsey is my favorite. She is observant and has started anticipating my needs - turning on all my lights because she knows I like it bright, handing me my water at certain times when she knows I'm likely to reach for it, putting the water I get with meals on the table so I don't spill it, etc. Plus she has a sweet and pleasant demeanor.
Corn dogs for dinner? Biscuits with sausage gravy for breakfast? Canned fruit?
Chicken fried steak. BBQ Riblets. Chicken nuggets.
And that's just from one week's menu!
The only fresh vegetables I can get are celery and carrot sticks or a salad with a choice of Ranch, French, or oil and vinegar (which I don't like at all.)
I'm quite sure I've gained weight here. Isn't that ridiculous?
Good that you are able to keep up the reading.
Wish we could send you a nice fresh dinner with all your favorite food ....
MrMorphy is still out of work. Between his age, the lack of jobs in his field (mechanical/electrical assembly), and his year of unemployment, he's finding it increasingly difficult to find jobs to apply for much less get to the interview process. He said he would go apply at Target if he had to but I asked him to wait until I had been home a week, if possible. I should be getting help at home but it will take time to arrange.
I know I haven't been much of a presence this year. I miss you all and very much appreciate that you are still posting to my thread. I can't tell you how much it means to me. Especially when I'm in this room day after day with hardly anyone to talk to. It's very lonely. The facility is always short staffed so aides hustle in and out. They are for the most part nice, but have no time to chit chat.
The mornings I spend in OT and PT. Then I spend the afternoon either napping, or trying to not to fall asleep while I read or watch a movie. Then the oh-so-fun bed bath because I can't stand long enough for a shower. Grrr.
Been struggling to get past the two minute mark when standing. The pain in my back gets excruciating. Talked to the doc today and we're going to change around my pain meds a bit (Morphine!) to see if it helps.
The last couple of years have been hell. I have a feeling that's why my back gave out. Too much stress and my body said, "ENOUGH." I have to say that I hope this is the "last thing" (*knocks on wood*) and our lives turn around now because I'm heartedly sick of the drama. I want a year of quiet. You hear me, Universe?
Here's the link: http://www.gofundme.com/2t8zc7c4w
Thanks in advance if you can spare a little.
BTW, Habit has made some real changes - when you're well enough to get back to it, you'll have to check them out. For one thing, it's not HabitRPG any more - it's Habitica. And we each own an orca and a royal purple griffin. Very pretty!
>38 scaifea: I miss you so much. I think I'm going to try to get caught up on your threads at least.
Over the weekend, I'll have one session of OT and one of PT on alternating days. I've signed up for BookBub and have been downloading free ebooks like crazy though I haven't gotten around to reading any of them.
I'm currently reading The Skies of Pern by MCaffrey (re read). I just finished Amphibians by DK Publishing. I'm going to read them all alphabetically! Next up is probably State of the Onion by Julie Hyzy. I got Hail to the Chef from Santa Thing from my wish list but didn't realize it was the second book in the series! Either that or I'll continue my reread of the In Death series with Indulgence in Death.
I watched National Treasure last night. I'm not sure what I'm going to watch tonight. I've been watching mostly action movies but all I have left loaded are things like Sense and Sensibility, Enchanted, The Unsinkable Molly Brown, and The Fault in Our Stars.
Ooooh, I just checked Crackle, a free streaming movie service. It seems they add new movies on the first. I want to (re)watch Heavy Metal, The Net, and 21.
...and the enormous bare boobs.
>41 cammykitty: >42 scaifea: Thanks! I'll be sure to tell MrMorphy about that. There's one that's closer than one of the Targets.
MrMorphy will be visiting me sometime today. I'm the household finances person so he'll be bringing my laptop and the bills!
I had PT yesterday (repeat with me, "I love hip flexion exercises." NOT.) so will have OT today (repeat with me, I love standing tolerance exercises." Ditto.)
Yesterday on the menu was printed "baked ravioli." Sounds pretty good, huh? Guess what I got? Something equivalent to Chef Boyardee (from a can) with about five ravioli and mostly sauce. Really?!?!
At least today it's pork roast for lunch and turkey for dinner. Can't mess those up too badly.
Thank you, thank you, thank you. Between you and MrMorphy's friends we are within $100 of our goal to pay off rehab!
I'm home and adjusting. The biggest worry was me getting off the toilet by myself and I was able to do it, first try. There are some difficulties with the timing of getting PT/OT (might not be until late in the week) and getting my walker (will take 1 to 2 weeks.)
If I can get in touch with my doctor early Monday AM and she is agreeable to authorizing the PT/OT before I see her on Wednesday, I may be able to see the home service people Monday afternoon. Otherwise, it will be Thursday at the earliest.
Nothing I can do about the walker. It's a special bariatric walker and I haven't been able to find anywhere that will rent one.
I'm feeling a bit numb emotionally. I've been in a medical facility of one type or another since July 1st and this is the first full day I've been home. It's a heck of a transition.
I did get something like ten hours of sleep last night. I've been getting five or six hours since this whole mess began!
I am moving to my new retirement place in small bits and it is taking up a lot of time. I might be able to sleep there tonight which will be great!
Unfortunately I have not had much posting or reading time, so I have been absent a lot. Hope to change that soon!
Hope to see you!
I am looking forward to great good times in the LibraryThing!
When this bad, I isolate and don't do much more than read and watch movies. I do read my thread. Thanks for checking in on me.
I'll try to get MrMorphy to get the address and room number posted if you want to send a postcard or something.
Your support means more than I can begin to express.
Thinking of you.
Good news. In the last month, I've lost 46 pounds/3.3 stone/21 kg.
STILL waiting for a room.
I have no personal experience with it, but I know it is now favorably regarded. I hope it helps you pull out of your current depression soon.
Find the will inside to trust the professional help being offered, and keep all of us with you. We surround you with our love and support.
I hope that you are better soon and that we can be back to reading for our bookclub!
Yesterday morning I woke up and felt like my old self again. I was smiling and saying good morning and almost felt giddy. I think the nurses thought they had a Jeckyl and Hyde on their hands. MrMorphy was hesitant to come get me when I said I was being discharged, "You sure you aren't just making this up to come home?" LOL!
Today, I have ENERGY! I'm smiling! I'm cracking jokes! I'm ME again!
It had to have been one of, or all three of the meds they took me off of - Lyrica, Zoloft, and Klonopin. Or the one they put me on, Cymbalta. Or a combo. Im hoping it's the ones they took off because there is no way we can afford the Cymbalta. Yeah, it'll cost us only $4 a month, but they charge the insurance company $500 a month. We'll be in the donut hole faster than you can say, "lickety-split."
Thank you so much for your encouraging words. They sure meant a lot to me.
Hugs to all!
Fingers crossed that it's not due to the expensive medicine!
He's been getting calls nearly every day from agencies about jobs. One's bound to click soon.
I met with my home care services case manager today and they will resume next week.
I actually have a (small and manageable) to do list AND have been checking tasks off.
My reading is still mostly focused on re-reads, so not much new on that front though I did enjoy The Selection by Kiera Cass, Hunter by Mercedes Lackey, and Armada by Ernest Cline.
And yay for checking things off lists!
Trying to decide between starting The High Lord by Trudi Canavan and Wild Magic by Tamora Pierce.
The first is the last in a trilogy I haven't read before; however, it's one of the rare times reading the ending has bitten me in the butt. I don't know if I want to read the entire book after having read it.
The second is the first book in a series I enjoyed many years ago.
>151 scaifea: It certainly gives a sense of accomplishment.
>152 Donna828: I must be feeling better since MrMorphy, who doesn't usually comment on my mood, told me last night that it was so because I was playful again.
>153 Ameise1: >155 DeltaQueen50: >156 drneutron: Thank you.
>154 maggie1944: Well, that never really changed. I've just become awful at keeping track. *winces*
"Interviewer:Give us your best tip for overcoming depression.
Stephen Fry:To regard it as being like the weather. It's not your responsibility that it's raining, but it is real when it rains, and the fact that it's raining does not mean that the rain is never going to stop. The only thing to do is to believe that, one day, it won't be raining and accept it so you can find a mental umbrella to shield yourself from the worst. The sun will eventually come up."
So glad your sun came up. May it stay a good long while, and may you always be able to find that "mental umbrella" when you need it.
I am so pleased that positivity kicked in in good time. Fingers and toes are crossed for Mr. Morphy on the job front. I think that all told you can clearly see how cherished you are in the 75ers.
Have a lovely weekend.
btw >159 laytonwoman3rd: I like Linda's ideas. Stephen Fry is a good role model for many of us.
Since July 1st, it's been he*l*l. I was in the hospital then rehab for over a month for back and knee pain that was so bad I couldn't walk. Then I had two hospitalizations for suicidal depression. Ended up finding out it was because of some of the meds they put me on because of the back and knee pain! The depression was so bad that they were going to give me ECT, so they took me off some of the meds that can prevent seizures. Lo and behold, I woke up one morning (before the treatment) and felt just fine!
Then I suffered for weeks with viral arthritis.
Saturday, I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia. The funny thing is, my mom and I have, in the past, laughingly called this the "Santa Claus" disease because it's "made up" just like he is. But I was doing research about some urinary issues I was having and it came up as one possible diagnosis. I did some research on fibro and I have MANY of the symptoms. More fool us!
When I talked to the doctor, she immediately agreed I had it. She believed I have had it for awhile but didn't tell me because many people get depressed when hearing it as there is no cure. But I was RELIEVED. I finally have an explanation for all the pain! No more urgent care visits where they can't find anything wrong! (Lose weight.) No more frequent flyer visits to the emergency room! (Go see a therapist.)
Now if I have pain, as long as it isn't incapacitating or last more than a couple days, I can FREAKING STAY HOME!
I'm on disability. We are applying for disability for my husband. He can't get work in his field because of the loss of his eye due to cancer and he hasn't been able to find any other work. We're at the point of getting food from food shelves, applying for utility assistance, mortgage forbearance, etc. Uck, just uck.
On a good note, in the next couple of weeks, we should have a wheelchair ramp out front. It was free through a grant! We also have a disability lawyer. I'm assuming that since they took us on and they work on contingency that they feel we have a pretty good shot.
For pleasure and comfort, I've been rereading the entire Valdemar Saga by Mercedes Lackey in chronological rather than publication order. It's amusing how many plot/character history errors I'm finding this way. I should finish the 33rd (and last) book today or tomorrow. No idea what I'll be reading next.
Thanks to jillmwo and streamsong for checking on me privately which nudged me into (eventually) coming out of isolation again.
Hugs and positive thoughts to you and MrM.
I was so relieved when you posted here about stopping that medication and waking up feeling like a new person.
Yeah, Lackey definitely never set up a bible for her world - I've noticed quite a few errors myself, just reading along (not that that makes them not worth reading/rereading!). Even so, it's excellent comfort reading.
>168 SylviaC: I have to admit I cried I was so relieved. I've had symptoms for two years and more specialist, urgent care, and ER visits that I'd like to admit to in that period.
It took three or four days for nurses and my doctor to convince me to go in the last time (UTI symptoms.) I did NOT want to go. And guess what? All the tests came back negative!!! It was the last straw and was what started my research on fibro.
>169 klarusu: I'm not making any promises like I usually do about being "back." It is my intent to be but this year I've said it too many times and disappeared again so I'm playing it by ear.
>170 maggie1944: I'm going to try to start living that life without waiting for things to come together. I've been doing that for months now and it hasn't been pleasant. MrMorphy and I have been working on our long term goals and come Sunday we'll start weekly family meetings to plan our week to meet those goals. I don't want to live a life on hold anymore.
>178 laytonwoman3rd: So much that it was another reason I was avoiding LT. There are a few LTers that I avoid because every post of theirs was another drama. It annoyed the heck out of me. Couldn't they ever post anything positive? Then for the last 18 - 24 months I became THAT person and I couldn't stand it.
>180 Berly: Yes, knowing that it's not "all in my head" or that I "just need to see a therapist for stress" is huge.
>181 jjmcgaffey: Oh, yes. The timing of the Tedrel Wars and Elspeth's age is pretty messed up. If you go by the Exile books, she should have been in her teens when Talia showed up in Arrows.
Happy Weekend, sweet heart.
...SIGNIFICANT SNOW EVENT POSSIBLE MONDAY THROUGH TUESDAY...
* SNOW IS POSSIBLE FROM MONDAY MORNING THROUGH TUESDAY AFTERNOON.
* TOTAL SNOW ACCUMULATIONS OF 7 TO 10 INCHES ARE POSSIBLE.
Although to be honest, I don't envy you....
Glad to see you updating again Morphidae.
Told Hani that "Morphy says she gonna get 10 inches in Minnesota", her reply that she had heard that was common amongst American men had me hurriedly explaining that your conversation was meteorological!
I think of you *every* *day*, but haven't wanted to push or pry...
There was also a brief reference to that same story line in the movie, Clueless with Alicia Silverstone.
But now I'm wondering who named your local weatherman. Did he assume the name on purpose as part of his professional "branding" in order to strike a chord with viewers? Or did his mother watch the soaps back in the day?
On MrMorphy's way home after dropping me off at the hospital, he was in an accident. He is okay. The truck was totaled. It was the other person's fault and she took 100% of the blame. Meanwhile, he borrowed his parent's second (tiny) car and I will need to use MetroMobility.
I've been having problems with not being able to eat and have lost 43 pounds in 12 days.
Seriously, we love you, Morphy-girl, and are earnestly hoping, and wishing, and praying for your complete and rapid rcovery. Menopause can be a bitch, no doubt. I'm hoping it is not that.
love, and hugs, K
Losing a vehicle is a problem, I know.
I was meaning to tell you about how you've been an inspiration to me lately. When I made my new 101 in 1001 list this summer (which was inspired by you to begin with), one of my goals was to list three good things that happened every day for a month. This goal was obviously stolen directly from you as well.
So I finally got started on that goal around Thanksgiving, and I've been *loving* it! I was really caught off guard by how satisfying and uplifting it is to list three good things every day, and I think it's given me a more optimistic outlook in general.
So thank you again for being such an inspiration!
Hugs to you!
For my Christmas/Hanukkah/Solstice/Holiday image this year (we are so diverse!), I've chosen this photograph by local photographer Mark Lenoce of the pier at Pacific Beach to express my holiday wishes to you: Peace on Earth and Good Will toward All!
P.S. No sparklies!
Have a lovely holiday, dear Morphy. xx
I hope 2016 brings you much more joy than 2015 did
And may you have a lovely New Year dear Morphy, filled with much better luck, wonderful books and all your favorite things!
Happy New Year Morphy!! Hope this year is an easier one, in fact, a wonderful one!! xoxo
laughing out loud
glad to see you posting, Morph!
*scurries off to Facebook*
Oh, and hope you've been feeling better, Morphy!