Eris attempts to recover from falling into a black hole

An accurate portrayal of Eris right now.

So... oh my gosh, what do I say?

I dissapeared. It got tough keeping up with my thread, especially since the internet kept luring me away from books. I also started taking up too many haunts on the internet, and it gets exhausting responding to everyone. I eventually dropped all my haunts, keeping up with some, but mostly just feeling very disillusioned with the internet.

But I feel extremely ashamed about abandoning you guys. For some reason I am somewhat liked here, and I feel awful for departing my dear friends here without even a word of explanation. You were with me through all of last year, and for a lonely teenaged girl with few friends it meant so much to me, and still does.

I don't know how well I'll be able to keep up this thread now, but I think I should really start visiting all of your threads again. I probably won't be able to go back and real the miles of posts that I've missed, but I'm going to keep up with what you've all been up to now.

if anyone's interested, I'll be writing a "what I did with my life whilst on hiatus" post, and I'll also go swoop in on your threads.

Love you guys.

Forget about shame and embarrassment! We are just delighted to hear that you are okay! No demands from this end--if you want to just post what you've read fairly regularly, we'll keep your thread warm for you. I have to confess, we were a bit worried at your complete disappearance! It's good to know you are well.

Oh Eris it's just so nice to see you back! No worries my friend! Feel free to just jump right back in now as if you'd never left. No need to catch up with everyone. ♥

*scuffs floor* Aw shucks, guys, I'm not worthy of this. :') Honestly, thank you from the bottom of my hearts.



And I really am doing well. Moody and pensive sometimes, but blessed and happy. Thank you for caring about this silly duck. *hugs to everyone*

My first question of course is, what do you think about the new Who rumors? My second (multi-part) question is, how is school going, are you taking time off over the summer, and are you still making art?

Yay for a new Eris thread! Welcome back!

There's no need to feel embarrassed or explain yourself, Eris. We've all been there at some point! We're just glad you're back.

Welcome back!

Books Eris Has Read Thus Far:

1. Inception: The Shooting Script, by Christopher Nolan
2. Maus, by Art Spiegelman
3. Between Shades of Gray, by Ruta Sepetys
4. The Sandman: Preludes and Nocturnes, by Neil Gaiman
5. The Sandman: Doll's House, by Neil Gaiman
6. Batgirl: The Darkest Reflection, by Gail Simone
7. Pride and Prejudice, by Jane Austen
8. Apology, by Plato
9. Crito, by Plato
10. Poison, by Bridget Zinn
11. Cinder, by Marissa Meyer
12. Scarlet, by Marissa Meyer
13. The Blue Castle, by L. M. Montgomery
14. The Ocean at the End of the Lane, by Neil Gaiman
15. The Cuckoo's Calling, by Robert Galbraith

Books Eris is Currently Reading:







I also have a host of others going, but those three are the ones I want to focus on. ^_^ Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell is amazing so far! I am nearly 600 pages into it and it is entrancing!

Kathy - The new Who rumors? After suffering a serious emotional breakdown over Matt's departure, I've kinda been able to function properly. I really have no idea who Twelve is going to be! I'm with Neil Gaiman when it comes to who Twelve will be - he should be an unknown actor. I want someone who doesn't have previous acting baggage, and can come on without being typecast. I want someone who can surprise me at the start of Series 8. :)

So, what are all of your thoughts on a new Doctor, that BLOODY CLIFFHANGER FINALE, and John Hurt's possibilities? Oh, and I was extremely happy with who Clara was revealed to be! She really was an ordinary girl, but one who made an extraordinary sacrifice for the Doctor. *sniff* I really adore Clara.

School is going fantastically, because it is all done. :D I am a free woman now! No more high-school and no more ridiculous California standards! I should probably be working on going to a community college, but mostly I've just been so happy to be free of all that pressure. I've mostly been writing and keeping up with art. It is glorious! I have been doing a lot of watercolors and oil pastels, and have also taken up art journaling. So much fun.

Writing has been my biggest pleasure, though. Out of the creation of my NaNoWriMo novel, Abigail Smith and the Seven Sisters hath sprung an entirely different novel but somewhat related novel, Ad Astra. I have plans for it, and have been working on this beloved baby of mine for the past few months. I'm really excited about it, and I hope I'll be able to write it the way that it should be.

Thank you so much Roni, Leah, Nora, and Foggi! I am so happy to be back, I truly am. *hugs to everyone*

SONG OF THE DAY



Space & Time, by VNV Nation http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZLiNr57387k

"Lost in thoughts,
On open seas,
Let the currents carry me,
If I could, would I remain,
Another life for another dream?
No turning back, face the fact,
I am lost in space and time,
Standing here, looking back in time."

A really good friend got me into this song and Irish and English electronic band, and for both of us it represents Doctor Who so well. It also reminds me of the state of life for me and many other young adults who have no idea what we're going to do with our lives - we're all lost, sometimes.

I agree with you (and Neil) that it should be someone unknown. I would love a fresh face! Some of the rumored candidates are just silly, like Richard Ayoade, Paris Jackson, Russell Brand, and... David Tennant. Haha!

As for John Hurt, I'm not real sure if I'm interested in a large story arc with him in it. (I know I know!) I just don't like the idea of a "fallen" or "bad" or "damaged" Doctor fragment. Yes, he's been all of those things at some point, but the whole point of the Doctor is that he recovers and adjusts and gets on with it. IDK, I think some resolution would be nice, not to just leave him floating out there in space and time, but I'm not sure how much after that we need to see.

I liked Clara's explanation a lot, mostly because it surprised us!

That's very exciting to hear you've been working on your writing. Good luck with it Eris!

This thread is already dangerous! I've been in Seattle for a month now and therefore missed ALL the Who action of the last few weeks. There are so many places on the internet that I can't even go near for fear of ruining it all for myself. Unfortunately, Pinterest managed to spoil one or two things for me before I even realized what was happening. Damn it! I look forward to getting home next week, getting caught up, and being able to chat with you guys about everything Who again.

OHIMIGOSH sorry Leah! I hope nothing I posted was a spoiler to you.

I have spoiler-free lenses in my glasses. ;) No, I'm very adept at lightly scanning and avoiding when need be. The one thing I did read here just happened to be the thing Pinterest ruined for me, so no worries. And then, even if Pinterest hadn't ruined it for me, Wes did. He and Lisa haven't been inDOCTORinated yet but Wes read something somewhere online and was being a good friend by trying to strike up a conversation about something he knows I'm interested in. Unfortunately, he led with the spoiler. ;)

I'm not caught up on Who either, Leah, so I'm in the same boat! No worries, though -- nothing on this thread has been a spoiler for me.

Eris - Nice to see you brand spanking new thread. Hope you are back and full of beans as usual.

Eris, it is wonderful to have you back again. You have been sorely missed. I loved The Killer Angels when I went on a Civil War spree a couple of years ago. I hope you are liking it.

Lovely to see you back, Eris. The nice thing about the internet is, it's always around even if you've been absent for a while.

I completely agree about the new Doctor needing to be played by someone mostly unknown. A role as iconic as that just doesn't work if you bring in someone who is already cemented in the public mind due to previous roles.

Going to respond to all comments later. I've been cleaning a lot this week (LOTS of cleaning) and had an exciting adventure of rescuing a dog, so I'm a bit tired.

I did want to say that I went to Barnes & Noble a couple of days ago, and bought three books. I am so excited so about them!

Neverwhere, by Neil Gaiman - I checked this book out from the library and am about eighty pages into it. I'm enjoying it so much so far that I had to buy it. I've listened to the BBC adaptation and absolutely adored it, so I am really savoring this novel.

The Once and Future King, by T. H. White - I've tried to read this book in the past, but I couldn't connect with it. Somehow I just started getting into it while standing in the bookstore reading it, and had to buy it!

And lastly, Selected Poems, by Robert Frost - the man is amazing, and since I didn't previously have any of his poems in my library that had to be changed.

Love you all so much, and thank you for coming to my thread! I'll get caught up tomorrow when I'm less tired. ^_^ *hugs to all*

SPOILERS

Caught up on Who tonight and I have to say I am totally confused. What is the connection between River and Clara? There has to be something there. I mean, they certainly didn't bring River back just so she could open a door. And the her parting words about still being linked to Clara and the parrallel of her telling Clara she'd just be a copy and Doctor telling River she was just a copy.... ARGGGG, so confused.

But that kiss between River and the Doctor. Man. I love them. I want all River, all the time!

I'm sad that Matt is leaving. I really did like him a lot.

Matt was pretty good as the Doctor. He did a great job of capturing the old-man-in-a-young-man's-body aspect of the character.

I really wish the announcement had been that Stephen Moffat was no longer going to be a writer/producer/whatever on the show. Most of the weirdest, most nonsensical and most irritating stuff is because of his influence.

Good buys Eris. Robert Frost remains my favourite American poet and sadly and unfairly overlooked for the Nobel prize IMO. Have a lovely weekend.

BTW there are 11 books re-released by the BBC to celebrate 50 years of Doctor Who; 1 per Doc. Highly recommended. I have bought five of the new editions thus far.

http://www.librarything.com/series/Doctor+Who+50th+Anniversary+Collection

22, 23 - Can't believe we're talking about Matt in the past tense! I'll miss him, but I'm dying to know who the next Doctor will be.

I also loved Neverwhere, and keep planning to read it again. I remember reading it on the beach, which was an odd combination.

Eris, I see we're going to have to have more chocolate and cute birdies in your thread to keep you here!

ARGH, the black hole grabbed at me again! *slaps forehead* Bad Eris. That black hole might come in the form of the Mass Effect franchise and Garrus Vakarian. They keep distracting me. :(

Kathy - My theory about the John Hurt Doctor is that he is the one who fought the Time War, and the one had to make incredible sacrifices and be the cause of many deaths in order to preserve the Universe. That's what I love about the Doctor - it's that sometimes he has to make hard choices.

Paul - Thank you so much for coming to my thread, even as I struggle with dusting it off. It means so much to me. :)

Donna - I grew up with the film that was based on The Killer Angels, Gettysburg. It was responsible for my brother's obsession with the Civil War and history at a young age, and my awe of Joshua Chamberlain at the age of eight. He's still one of my heroes.

Paws - Right! It's like the way I am with Will Smith, Martin Sheen or other big name actors. When I see them on the screen it's hard for me to see the character by themselves, because I'm so familiar with the actor. A lot of times all I can see is "oh, there's Will Smith!" I hope that made sense. :P

Leah - That kiss between River and the Doctor made me sob like a baby, and I'm not even a huge fan of their relationship. I like it, but I'm a complete Whouffle shipper. :) I think the connection between River and Clara was because they were still in that dream palace thing of Vastra's and the psychic connection between them in that palace wasn't severed. Or something. There could be more to it!

Bluesalamanders - Wah, I'm sorry you feel that way. :( I'm a huge fan of Moffat's work, personally, and I adore what he's done with the concepts of time travel, memory, non-linear storytelling, and complex villains. There's a lot more to his stories then meets the eye, and I love analyzing them.

And hey, when hasn't Doctor Who been weird? :D

Paul - Robert Frost is one of my favorites, too! And why he didn't get a Nobel Prize I cannot fathom. Morons. I saw those books at Barnes & Noble! I'm going to look up some reviews of them to see if they're any good, and then I'll probably get some of them. ^_^

PensiveCat - I hate talking about Matt in the past tense, too. :( He's still the Doctor, and we've still got the 50th Anniversary to look forward to, so he'll definitely leave with a bang.

Kathy - BIRDIE! :D I think that's the key - pictures of birdies will make me stay.

Nora - Ducks, too. :)

How about this?

Eris! Lovely to have you back with us :-) I think I've burnt out on Dr Who - I just didn't enjoy the latest series at all :-( Please don't hate me...!

MINE! *attempts to devour computer screen*

I've been having a marvelous day thus far! I helped my mom with some gardening and then ran around in the sprinklers like a little kid. After that it was popsicle eating time!

It's finally starting to feel like summer here in California. It's hard to believe that a week ago it was cloudy and rainy.

Found this on Facebook, knew it HAD to be yours:

Well, my mom has always been complaining about the sofas we have. Perhaps I could persuade her to have a décor change...

What a great sofa!

We're baking here today, Eris!

Mmmmmmmmmmmmm, whatcha baking? :D

Ourselves! It's hot!

Okay, so not the nice cookies or pies that I thought you meant. ;) Yeah, it's getting pretty hot here, too. But we have the air conditioner and all the fans on, and I wish to remain in its protective bubble. I doubt anything could convince me to go outside. Not even if I heard the TARDIS.

Maybe I won't go that far.

I wonder if the TARDIS sofa keeps materialising in different parts of the living room?
Have a lovely weekend Eris.

That would make rearranging the living room interesting!

Paul - Probably. Maybe it's wise I don't have a TARDIS couch. She would crush the telly!

Dr. Neutron! Thank you so much for visiting my thread. :) I doubt my mom would want to geekify the living room, though. She finds my inclination to want to turn everything into a TARDIS... amusing. SHE DOES NOT UNDERSTAND HOW SERIOUS IT IS.



"You'll Be Safe Here," by Dean Trippe

*happy grin* I feel very safe.

WHAT HAPPENED TO LIBRARYTHING?! O_O

I'm sure I'll adjust, but woah...

>43 ErisofDiscord: This is what happens when you don't post for a few days! ;-)

Make sure you play around with the homepage modules; they're super fun!

Awww, the comics picture is great. I keep finding faces every time I look.

Nora, I had to take all the modules off my home page! Too much at once. It used to be all shoved down to the bottom and text-y, now it's flash-y and in your face. To each his own! I love that I can make mine super clean and empty. :)

>45 UnrulySun: Mine was that way at first, but I changed all the "covers" to "titles" and now it's great. Plus, I never EVER used the home page before, so I guess anything is an improvement. I doubt I'll use it much now either, though. I'm mostly a Talk/Your Books/Add Books kind of girl :-)

Yeah me too. In fact, my toolbar shortcut links directly to the Talk page.

Maybe I'll go play around with them, and see if "titles" looks better. Although, it's still pretty moot for me.

>47 UnrulySun: You can rearrange to your heart's content, and for most modules you can set how many items they show. So you could probably reconstruct your old home page if you remember what was on it.

I'm liking the "tiny" covers on a shelf.

Happy Independence Day, mah American homies!

Shades of The Amazing Adventures of Kavalier and Clay!!

Or that time when Rory socked Hitler in the face on Doctor Who! Ah yes, good times.

I'm so depressed that I just finished watching Avatar: The Last Airbender. What am I supposed to do with my life now? Besides crying over Zuko.

Maybe go back to actually reading more often. That would be productive!

You could watch The Legend of Korra?

Watched it first before Avatar, and am also pining for Book 2. I have Avatar: The Search on hold, though! Hopefully it'll come soon.

I still haven't seen that movie! Hmm... maybe I'll go see if it's available. :D

The movie? *panicked eyes* Oh, no, no, no, no, you don't mean The Last Airbender movie are you? D: The one made by M. Night Shyamalan? For the love of stars, supernovas, and the galaxy entire, don't watch it! The animated show from Nickelodeon is amazing (and I recommend it to anyone of any age), but the movie that was based off of it was a disgrace. Not just to the show, but to cinema as a whole. Nothing about that movie was great.

But the animated show, on the other hand, is fantastic. Beautiful animation, complicated characters (Zuko... sigh), interesting plot, tearbending moments, philosophical questions, and just enjoyable fun! I was so excited for every episode, and couldn't wait to find out what happened next.

So... I bought this from an antique's store yesterday for 89 dollars:





I feel wealthier and happier than any King. ^_^ It works and it's gorgeous and makes the most beautiful sounds. It has a personality unto itself, and I really think it deserves a name.

It's my baby.

Oh gosh, I didn't realize you meant the show, Lol! Sorry. I was surprised you liked the movie so much because it got panned... But I was willing to try it!

Gorgeous typewriter!! Love it to pieces!! Do you feel all productive on it and everything? She needs a lovely nostalgic name.

Classic typewriter Eris. Still no news on a new Doctor?

Have a lovely weekend.

Sarah Jane. Of course.

Haha, sorry for the confusion, Kathy! XD Yeah, the movie didn't just get panned, it was reviled. M. Night Shyamalan has made his directing name even more infamous. And let's not even mention After Earth. *shivers*

Thank you, Paul! And nope, no news on Twelve. I don't expect them to announce it soon, really, and I hope they don't. I want them to take as long as possible in finding the right actor. BBC has found eleven amazing actors before, though, so I trust them to make the right decision.

Hmmmmmmmmmmmm... Sarah Jane is a fitting name. I was calling it Sexy for a bit (because it is so damn pretty), but I think Sarah Jane is more classy. And companion-y. :D *tackle hugs Richard*

Painting by Daniel Ablitt

The trees make me happy. ^_^

Ooo! I like the painting, too! *smooch* again

There's something... not-quite-right about those trees. It's giving me the willies. Like veins or ink floes or insidious mold. I like it.

I also like Sarah Jane. I think it suits her just right!

Ummm I'm not sure that the artist was quite going for "happy" as the emotion he wished to inspire but it does have an ethereal mood about it.

58: That is my DREAM typewriter!!!! Congratulations!

I like those trees too. They are a little ethereal, as in a dreamscape.

Richard - Our brainwaves synced. *smooch*

Kathy - Hmmmm, you're right, they do kinda look like veins. I likey even more.

Paul - Ethereal things make me happy because they are beautiful. Beauty in general makes me happy, as it is my fervid belief that it shall save the world.

Catherine - Isn't a dream?! :D Thank you so much! I hope all of us can possess typewriters one day. Goodwills and antique stores are good places to scour.

Roni - They are like something from a dream. I would love to hire the artist to illustrate a book for me or something.

IMPORTANT NEWS OF THE WHOVIAN SORT, REGARDING THE TWELFTH DOCTOR

http://doctorwhotv.co.uk/12th-doctor-revealed-on-sunday-52184.htm

The actor for the Doctor will be revealed on Sunday in a live broadcast that will simultaneously be broadcasted on BBC America and BBC. 7 pm, England time, and 11 am PST for America.

No, I am not excited or flailing around. No I am not panicking.

70 - fidaigiatgare8uyt8ureatoduogu98fdufgoiaiur8gugfrygyufg

that is all.

RUPERTGRINTRUPERTGRINTRUPERTGRINT

WOHOO!!!!

>72 richardderus: He has my vote too!

Wow, really? They kept saying they wouldn't reveal until closer to the 50th. I guess they were trying to distract us, outright lying, or are just unable to keep the secret any longer. However it happens... yeek!

I'm not familiar with Peter Capaldi's work, but looking at photos of him, I can see how he could pull off a range of Doctor-like qualities: roguish, charming, mysterious, dead-serious, goofy, emotional... and he fits the bill for an older Doctor as well. Hmmm!

YECH I surely hope not. He's a good actor, but he's too, errrmmm, old.

So it's 2 pm Sunday. Just set the DVR. Rupert Grint would be AMAZING AND INSANE!

76 - You're so prejudiced, Richard. XD But seriously, I don't know about Peter Capaldi. I don't know about anyone. It's so hard for me to imagine anyone as the Doctor now.

And the announcement of Twelve on Sunday was officially confirmed by BBC today, so it is happening!

Rupert Grint? :) :) :) I could live with that.

IMPORTANT NEWS OF THE SHERLOCK SORT

"Sherlock" Series 3 trailer, guys: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=llGXWICGsD4

I WAS NOT READY FOR THIS. NOPE. NOPE. NOPE. Good bye, emotions!

Also, haha, moustache. XD

Where are you, Eris?? I need your commentary on The News.

Eris was at Mass throughout the whole thing. I just came home and now I have no idea what to feel. I am happy, excited, confused, happy, excited, confused, worried about Whouffle, excited for Whouffle, thankful the Doctor isn't going to be a woman, and excited. SORRY I HAVE A TURRENT OF FEELS RIGHT NOW!

In case people didn't get the news:

All in all, I'm quite happy! We won't know for certain until the episode he appears in rolls around, but I am happy. He's Scottish and an older Doctor, which I think is great, and I can't wait to see how his relationship with Clara pans out. Yes, I am a Doctor/Clara shipper, but I am a Whovian first, so whatever direction they decide to take I am cool with.

Also, Peter Capaldi seems to be a sassy little snit, so that pleases me greatly.

Our new Doctor, ladies and gentlemen! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cg-pnGFbwMQ

I think I'm just stuck on him as John Frobisher from Torchwood: Children of Earth. Hopefully all will be well. Doctor Who is ruining my Christmas.

He was also in The Fires of Pompeii! Personally, I think he'll do nicely. I've been going through "The Thick of It" and damn, he can be very intimidating and charismatic at the same time! I'm excited. ^_^

Thanks for the links, Eris. I PM'ed both the youtube videos of Sherlock and 12 to my daughter on facebook so she can continue to think I am a Cool Mom--little does she know that you are the source of all my knowledge..... **evil-ish mind control laughter**

MWAHAHAHAHAHA! I am proud to assist you in your devious scheme. :D You are a cool mom.

I like an older Doctor - hopefully it'll be a bit more like Classic Who - I've been watching the old stuff and it was great to not have the shippy stuff. Not that they can't put him in a romantic role. What I really like is that he is a Doctor Who fan. That enthusiasm was certainly good for Tennant!

Don't know if you've had time to go to Mark's thread, but David Tennant has a new series that started on Wednesday, called Broadchurch. The first episode is available free at bbcamerica.com for a 'limited' time. (whatever that means)

Tennant is a detective-- slightly dark, mysteriously wounded-but-still-in-control warrior and seeker of justice. Which, as DD pointed out is not a bad description of 10.

I watched the first episode a while ago when it was coming out in England. Didn't mind it. I'll probably have to check the show out further when it comes out on DVD. It's nice to see two Doctor Who actors in the lead roles.

Sorry for not commenting so much here on LibraryThing! I've been mostly focusing on Goodreads, especially with the past week. I learned that one of my friends on Goodreads, a charming, thoughtful, grammar conscious twelve-year-old Whovian named Cat was killed in a car crash. It's rocked the little group I'm a part of there, and all of us are still in shock about it. She was too young to go, and for me to register that this girl - someone who I had fangirled and chatted with - is dead, is still inconceivable.

I've mostly been spending my time hanging out with this group and appreciating each other's company, and supporting each other. You never know when you're going to go, so we're trying to never take each other's company for granted.

Oh how horrible, Eris, I am so saddened to hear it. It's awful when the young suffer such early deaths.

*smooch*

So sorry that this has happened. :(

Oh Eris, that is terrible news. I'm sorry for you and her circle of friends online, but especially for her parents and immediate family. What a tragedy to lose such a young spirit.

So sorry to hear that, Eris.

Heya Eris... How're things going? I hope you're feeling well and having a nice time with your art and your reading... Miss you!

Eris - Missed your thread and your sad news. Don't spend much time on Goodreads in truth as the 75ers keeps me a bit on the busy side. Like Kathy you are missed in this parts as are your wonderfully invented gifs. xx

Hey Eris! I was window shopping online and came across Tardis messenger bags which made me think of you and then I thought about your sewing a bag and then I remembered you were making a coat and I don't think we ever got to see it! Whew! How did it turn out?

Eris - Don't know where you are in Time and Space but Happy Thanksgiving, my dear.

Smoochling, I hope you'll grace us with a visit sometime soon.

*hugs*

Erisssssss I miss youuuuuuuuu

Come back, Eris!

Dear Eris. Miss you loads. Have a wonderful Christmas!

Eris, my friend, I hope your holidays are being good to you! Let's hope we get to see more of you in the new year. ♥

Well, that black hole really loves me.

GAAAAAAH! Your comments are so beautiful. Thank you for them, even though I was a non-existent responder. They mean a lot to me.

Happy new year, everyone! I hope things are looking a bit more up this year.

So yeah, here's kinda of an update thing...

I'll get the big thing that really killed a lot of my enthusiasm for internet connecting first thing, though.

Remember that girl who got killed in a car crash? Turns out her "friend" who reported her death was lying, and this girl who was supposed to be dead made a grand reentrance, before leaving. Both the accounts were invented by a liar. This person then went on to troll a bunch of wonderful, sweet, and kind-hearted kids on Goodreads, by having a series (I know of two other accounts and one suspect) of accounts where this person gained their confidence, and then lied and made a huge drama-fest.

Pretty bloody low. It made me feel horrible, because I'd shed tears and grieved over this kid that I'd thought died, and turns out it was all a lie to get attention. So I tried to be there for this group, and we've all gotten past it pretty much.

Didn't know how to explain all this crap a few months ago, but I've gotten over it now. Bah. Reminds you of how the internet can be abused.

So yeah, that was my big internet drain thing! I've also been going through a lot of Horrid Angst Stuffs. I'm eighteen, so I'm technically an adult, whee. But I don't feel like one. And I'm no longer a teenager, really, so what am I? *existential crisis* So angst. :D

Something really beautiful and joyful has entered my life, though. ((Richard, if you're reading this, avert your eyes. I don't want to sully my reputation in your eyes. ;D )) I'm officially converting to Catholicism. I started RCIA (Rite of Christian Initiation of Adults something or another, I don't speak Acronym) back in September or so, and in four months, at Easter, I will be baptized, confirmed, and have first Eucharist. :') This is something I've strongly desired for over two years, and I am finally doing it!

I've been Agnostic-ish, Deist, New Age-y, and researched a variety of faiths, yet Catholicism has called to me above them all. I know this is the path, I know it in my heart and my head.

Sooooo yeah! Really overjoyed about that. I'm also finally beginning to take courses at the community college this semester! I'm taking English, Art, and American History, so it should be fun. :) When I'm feeling brave I'll get into math. *shudder*

Thank you so much for sticking around and everything! If you read this, you get a pony.

Love you.

I get a pony!

Eris, I'm so sorry to hear about the drama and heartache that person caused. It's selfish and horrid. Unfortunately it can be a common occurrence on the internet, and is one reason I don't let myself get involved in online groups too often. I've seen fake illness, fake death, fake children, fake vacations, fake degrees, you name it. I don't understand it and it's made me pretty cynical. I don't wish that upon you! Our online friends can become as precious to us as real life friends and when they betray us or are lost to us it hurts just as bad. But don't beat yourself up for being duped by it-- pride yourself in your compassion for others, even when it turns out they didn't deserve it. I'm very glad you're okay now. :)

And congrats on the monumental decision to convert! I myself am an atheist (more apathetic agnostic I guess), but I do believe in the value of a community and faith that brings you comfort and well-being. My best wishes to you on your journey.

POOOOOONY!



You're right, and I do see that trolling a lot. I guess it's just strange to see it happen with someone you thought was a neat person, and seemed to be, but there was something off. I don't understand it either, and it did make me cynical. But you're right, the one thing that stopped me were the good online friends, the ones who had proven themselves. For me there is one in particular. Her name is Ellie, and she's one of my closest friends, even though I've never met her in real life. I met her through Goodreads, and if it weren't for her, I would've lost all connection to the internet. She encouraged me to come back here, too, so I definitely owe her one. I owe her a lot, really.

Thank you! Still have quite a long road ahead of me. Aye, my dad is kinda in the apathetic agnostic camp, too. He's been really lovely and supportive, so I am really thankful for that. Without my parents, I wouldn't have been able to do this.

I pray for your journey, too, wherever it leads. *hug*

What a horrible, horrible person to do something like that! I can't stand liars. I'm glad you're better and that your friends at GR are doing better too.

Eris, I've had that happen to me, too on a horse training message board. The supposed husband came on and said his wife had been killed when a horse fell with her. I think people were even collecting for a memorial fund to help the husband out. It was very saddening and eye-opening.

And -do I dare say this - there's one person here on LT whose story just doesn't hang together. Maybe I'm being cynical, (once burned, twice shy) but it happens everywhere.

Congrats on your big news! Although I'm Protestant, there are some really neat people here on LT who are Catholic. Sometimes I skim posts on the Catholicism group. Have you discovered that group yet?

Dearest Eris,
The whole "adult" thing is a total scam. I'm almost twenty-six and I've never, for one moment, felt like an adult. The important thing is to just keep doing the things that make you feel best about yourself, and to continue to grow into the person you most want to be. (Which I can tell that you are doing! Good for you!) And then one day when you least expect it, you'll realize that you forgot to care about being an adult, because you're too busy being Eris.

Paws - Ditto. Honesty is such an undervalued trait. And we are doing well! I feel a lot better talking about it, too. At first I couldn't even stomach telling my mom, but it's all in the past now. The person is still trying, but the game gets old, and we've all moved on.

Streamsong - Oh wow, that's horrible. D: I guess it happens a lot more often than sincere users like to think about. Learning that more and more. Quite sobering, but I'm happy you guys found out about the loser in the end.

I haven't gone to the Catholicism group yet! I shall have to check that out. I was a part of the Christianity group here for a bit, but I accidentally made an ass of myself a couple of years ago. But I'll give groups another shot, I guess!

Nora - O_O So basically Adulthood is a gigantic lie? My word! Well, I shall try and keep doing what I'm up to now, I guess.

I doubt my own abilities to know what is best for me, though. I have learned that I am quite fallible. Hopefully I shall do what is right despite myself, however, and continue a progression! Even if it's mean I am still a goofy six-year-old fangirl inside. ^_^

I suppose that to truly become a better person, you have to know how to be little. That a little humble path is a path worth taking. There's a lot to learn from children.

And if I talk any longer, I'll be a babbling mess, so I'll close this now.

And probably go and get a 2014 thread.

Adulthood is real, I think, but if you worry about finding it then you won't ever find it. It's kind of like romantic movies. If you spend all your time thinking/worrying about whether the things in your life add up to this ideal in your head, you'll miss the romantic things all around you.

You are the only person who knows what is best for you - it's whatever makes you feel good about yourself. Catholicism makes you feel good about yourself. Writing makes you feel good about yourself. Being a fangirl and connecting with other fans makes you feel good about yourself. (I know TONS of fangirls/boys who are well into their adult years, and being open and passionate about the things they love doesn't make them any less of an adult!)

Watch this video of two adult fangirls and you will feel better :-)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LCDgJiPBxfI

I've sort of come to the conclusion that when you let your "inner child" out and just do what you want instead of what you think you should do, that's when you've become an adult.
Most adults I know are ridiculously childish - that's what makes life fun.

Don't worry that you don't have answers at 18. I was more adult at certain points in my mid 20s than I am now at 31, but it is different for everyone. Being adult to me is knowing who you are and what you want and that can change. I was sure of that for a while but I became a different person and went back to the drawing board. I'm getting there now, but I'm still muddying through the growing pains a bit. You'll do fine.

You ladies are still playing at it - I am a 47 year old boy. Growing up is no big deal if you refuse to countenance it.

Bravo to you for following your convictions. XX

Hey, Eris, Nora has good words for you. Glad you are back in these parts and I'll go look for your new thread. Am I too late for a pony?

I saw this tumblr and thought of you, Eris.
http://fandomlikefinewine.tumblr.com/

Also this:

Thank you, Nora, Paws, Paul, Leah and Roni!

Roni - you gets a pony!



Nora - Thank you! ^_^ And oh la la, all the wonderful gents. :) They so pretty.